Gahhh I haven't updated in quite a while. Not like I'm apologizing to many people though because there are only a few of you who are dedicated or bored enough to read this LOL. But anyway, I feel like it's about time I add something new here (And also I'm just really bored in guidance...).
Hmm, well as for updates, there's not that much going on. I'm still hating on school. I hate being here, really. The only bearable days are B days, but that's because half of my classes aren't really classes. A days suck so hard. Three APs in a row, then physics. FML. But ah well, at least the year is more than half way over. I suppose that's the bright side to everything.
But enough of the whining (for now.).
Church was rather interesting this Sunday. I sorta like to think that God reads my blog too, cause it seemed like we were having a long-distance conversation. In my most recent post, I basically left off saying that, whatever I do, I'm gonna do it with purpose. My issue though was not really knowing what that "thing" is. Kinda like a "what is my purpose" sort of deal, though on a slightly lesser scale.
Anyhoo, at church Pastor Brad basically explained to me what I need to do. The weird thing is that it wasn't a conversation between him and I, but it was just a sermon; just a normal day at church. I've had experiences like this before, when it really seemed like some issue I was dealing with or whatever was being put up on stage, but the fact that I actually blogged about it and then saw some kind of response is pretty cool.
In short, the message basically said "we're asking the wrong kinds of questions." At least for me, I'm always wondering "What am I supposed to do?" or maybe "What is God's plan for me?" Normal questions right? Like everyone seems to want to have this greater purpose. No one wants to just coast through life and then look back at it and see every single day wasted; each second as lifeless. It's seemingly logical to think that this is just a part of the human condition--that people, whether it be in a religious context or not, desire some sort of meaning.
But I saw that these aren't really the right kinds of things to ask. Rather than saying, "God, what is your plan for me?" I should ask, "God, what is your plan for this world, and how can I be a part of it?" Basically, the mindset of the first question supposes that God is only about me; that only my relationship with him matters. And it does, but it's not the only thing that He's concerned with. There are billions of people in the world, each with their own lives, problems, and struggles. Who am I to behave like I am the only one?
The second question is more aligned with God. My focus shouldn't be on, "What's God's purpose for me?" but rather, "How can I help?" We all are a part of some cosmic plan, no doubt. If we are all weaved into this plan for the universe, then shouldn't my place it in be the same as yours? Why do I need my own singular "plan", when there is something greater already waiting for me to jump in? If I can perceive God's work around me, then my purpose should be to further advance it.
Now, I have a lot more answers, but still some lingering questions. I know what I should be asking now. I just need to realize God's work in the place around me. But with the right questions, you will always find your answer.
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Yeah so sorry for the serious blogs lately. I guess this just reflects my contemplative mood. That, and there really hasn't been that much to say. But hopefully I get some more light-hearted stuff up here soon. But until then, gewd byeeeeee.
jaawshh
Anyhoo, at church Pastor Brad basically explained to me what I need to do. The weird thing is that it wasn't a conversation between him and I, but it was just a sermon; just a normal day at church. I've had experiences like this before, when it really seemed like some issue I was dealing with or whatever was being put up on stage, but the fact that I actually blogged about it and then saw some kind of response is pretty cool.
In short, the message basically said "we're asking the wrong kinds of questions." At least for me, I'm always wondering "What am I supposed to do?" or maybe "What is God's plan for me?" Normal questions right? Like everyone seems to want to have this greater purpose. No one wants to just coast through life and then look back at it and see every single day wasted; each second as lifeless. It's seemingly logical to think that this is just a part of the human condition--that people, whether it be in a religious context or not, desire some sort of meaning.
But I saw that these aren't really the right kinds of things to ask. Rather than saying, "God, what is your plan for me?" I should ask, "God, what is your plan for this world, and how can I be a part of it?" Basically, the mindset of the first question supposes that God is only about me; that only my relationship with him matters. And it does, but it's not the only thing that He's concerned with. There are billions of people in the world, each with their own lives, problems, and struggles. Who am I to behave like I am the only one?
The second question is more aligned with God. My focus shouldn't be on, "What's God's purpose for me?" but rather, "How can I help?" We all are a part of some cosmic plan, no doubt. If we are all weaved into this plan for the universe, then shouldn't my place it in be the same as yours? Why do I need my own singular "plan", when there is something greater already waiting for me to jump in? If I can perceive God's work around me, then my purpose should be to further advance it.
Now, I have a lot more answers, but still some lingering questions. I know what I should be asking now. I just need to realize God's work in the place around me. But with the right questions, you will always find your answer.
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Yeah so sorry for the serious blogs lately. I guess this just reflects my contemplative mood. That, and there really hasn't been that much to say. But hopefully I get some more light-hearted stuff up here soon. But until then, gewd byeeeeee.
jaawshh
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