i forgot how to Relax

Yesterday was my most relaxing day at UVA yet. It actually seems pretty pathetic if you think about it, but I enjoyed it a lot. My day consisted of this:

Wake up
Eat
Read
Sleep
Read
Sleep
Watch Sad Movie
Solve Puzzle (it was a dolphin LOL)
Sleep.

All with my roommate (except for the eating part because he was still sleeping).


But yeah it was really nice. A good break from UVA while still at UVA. Most of my days consist of being with multiple people constantly, always doing something, and never just relaxing. Even if we're all just chilling in someone's room, it's hard to find a sense of peace while surrounded by a lot of people. It's not a bad thing though. We all enjoy each other's company, so rather than being lifeless and boring while together, we choose to have fun. Actually, maybe it's almost an obligation. That's why yesterday was very welcomed. I wasn't obligated to do anything (except studying I guess). I didn't have to make conversation, listen to some issue, or just be lively.

I think I sound pretty anti-social up there, and maybe that's a reflection of how I'm feeling today. But it's not to say that I don't want to do or dislike partaking in what I said above. The whole part of being a friend is wanting the ones you love to be okay and to have a good time with them. And so for the past few months, as I've grown to know and grown in these people, that's what I've been doing.

However, I think yesterday was a necessary break. It's good to just be alone and be yourself, I would say. Even though I was with John, it was still just really relaxing. I think it's gotten to a point living with John where I can be pretty much completely comfortable being myself in my own room. He can be at his desk doing something, and I can be on my bed doing something else. There's no tension to talk or break silence. Sure, the added comment of something funny on youtube or facebook is welcomed, but over all, just knowing that we're there is enough to keep company. I really like that though. That's how close we are. There's not always a need for words, or a need to be doing something. Just us being there is enough.




And this is all to say that, though I wasn't technically alone yesterday, I was still free enough to just shut down and chill. Hopefully this defines my entrance into Finals Season. I don't want to go into it stressed out and wired up. I want to take finals as they come, and, while preparing, take it with a peaceful state of mind.

Maybe I'll keep in my room for a bit longer.


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Gahh...I don't want this to come off as being anti-social or not wanting to be with friends. I'm not saying that I don't want to be with anyone for finals days of the semester to come. I love my friends. And I love being with them. The only thing that should be taken out of this is that I liked relaxing yesterday. LOL.